It's what I wanted. No, what I wanted was for things to not have turned out bad. I guess closure is what I needed. Now I'm not sure how I feel. I'm profoundly sad. Relieved. Depressed. Looking forward, looking backward, trying to face right now.
The weather is perfect but bringing with it a whole new set of sensory forced memories that I'm not prepared to deal with yet. I know that the passionate, emotional, feeling, intense person is who I am. I'm just having a little trouble being with myself right now. Wishing I was incapable of feeling for a little while.
Of course I'll survive. I just don't know if I'll ever be the same. I'm a stronger person than I thought. But weaker than I should be.
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Hope you are okay. Let's talk soon.
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